Smoking and Smoking

I am a marijuana smoker. I am a cigarette smoker, for now.

It is hard for me to admit that. I despise cigarettes. I feel like there is a dark cloud over me and I am a slave whenever I light up a cigarette. I feel like I am getting closer to being able to live a life free of cigarettes but every time I feel like I am getting closer to escaping, the slave master comes and pulls me back.

It all started with an ex who showed me that smoking cigarettes felt nice when you had them after having a few drinks. The ironic thing was, I was always warned about marijuana being the gateway drug but I tried both cigarettes and alcohol before marijuana and have not tried any hard drugs since. That is in part due to the lack of desire for that and partially as a personal commitment I made to prove that marijuana is not a gateway drug. Haven’t even tried shrooms, which I hear are pretty cool.

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I got into the habit of smoking after I drank and smoking after I smoked (marijuana). Over the years I noticed many people around me who were either open to smoking both or strictly opposed to putting any tobacco in their body whatsoever. I have run into people who mix marijuana and tobacco in the same joint to create spliffs. I met many people who, like me, felt that they were more addicted to the act of smoking than cigarettes.

In one way of the other, all weed smokers will come across the challenge of how to handle tobacco in one way or the other.

Some choose to happily smoke cigarettes. I will not judge these individuals but I am choosing a different path.

I am choosing freedom.

Cigarettes are bad for obvious health reasons to nonsmokers but nicotine is one of the most addictive substances ever known to mankind. According to some, it is more addictive than heroin. I will never know because I will never touch heroin but I do know that cigarettes suck. I wake up coughing and wheezing. My energy levels are nowhere near where I know they could be. I lose strength every time I smoke and it literally feels like my immune system is getting weaker with every pull. Yet I still smoke.

They fool you. They fool you into believe that you need them to fill some sort of void that you somehow never needed to fill in this capacity before you got addicted. Most smokers smoke subconsciously without allowing themselves to

I have tried many different ways to quit and have found little luck with them. I have really come to the conclusion that this will have to come from me but it will not be a matter of will, it will have to come from a fundamental shift in my daily thought pattern and habits as they pertain to my mission in life. I have a responsibility to the greenies, to my religious organization, to my co-workers, to my family and most of all to myself to not allow myself to succumb to accepting defeat in this battle. This is literally a fight for my life. It is a fight for me to love and appreciate my life. Yesterday was Valentines day, I am really vowing to love myself and HMJ more than ever.

I feel like I am a strong person but I am asking for help from the greenies on this. I would like feedback from everyone who has any experience dealing with this on any level. Please leave your thoughts in the comments. I want to hear from you if you are a happy smoker, if you are trying to quit, or if you will never smoke a cigarette in your life. I want to hear your struggles and challenges with this. Do you feel like your weed smoking has an effect on your cigarette smoking? Will you ever quit? Have you resorted to e-cigarettes? I want to know. This is not impossible.

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  1. ~*smokey-mirror*~ February 22, 2013 at 13:58

    October 28: "It may seem perfectly all right to put ourselves and our own wishes first, to simply follow the dictates of our emotions and cravings, but the truth is that there is nothing more unreliable than our own mind. Life doesn't always go like clockwork and things will not necessarily turn out as we hope or plan. Consequently Nichiren Daishonin frequently stressed: You should become the master of your mind, not let your mind master you. We mustn't allow ourselves to be ruled by a self-centered mind. Rather we have to discipline our mind and gain mastery over it.

  2. ~*smokey-mirror*~ February 22, 2013 at 13:48

    I can relate to the difficulties of quitting. I feel like it is a matter of your thinking and when u make that fundamental change it will make a world of a difference in the cravings. I've quit several times in my life (a few before my addiction to nicotine was as bad as it is now) I've quit because of pregnancy, health reasons, and my most recent quitting semi-success was due to a reward promised to me that I really want and need. The thing I thought about when I wrote that is that I feel like I will have to do whatever it takes to get myself to believe my health and my life is a good enough reward. I would like to get to the point I no longer feel i have to punish myself. As humans we punish ourselves over and over when in reality karma will do that job for us.

  3. Ness February 21, 2013 at 17:57

    I started smoking cigarettes when i was 13. I havent stopped. I didnt start smoking weed until i was 15. Its been a number of years now and i still have had no luck quitig smoking. I cant say i have been trying all that hard, but i know it wouldnt be easy. Marijuana increases my need for the taste and feel of a cigarette. My ex boyfriend got me an e cig but it just wasnt the same. If i had to chose between weed and cigarettes, you KNOW i would pick the green. I love maryjane and no bullshit tobacco would ever take her away from me.

  4. nick throwed February 21, 2013 at 16:42

    smoking cigs is extremely hard to quick. i quick by limiting myself till i was only smoking one a day, smoking black n milds or even a rillo sometimes in desperate need, i would hit it a few times then would be straight. i even started to put in snus during school to kill my urges. i cant even smoke a cig anymore without gasping or getting sick, which is pretty awesome. i still smoke black n milds everynow and then when i drink or just wanna smoke on something. sory if it didnt make any sense im high as fuck

  5. Steve February 21, 2013 at 16:30

    I quit cold turkey almost 2 months ago, and it was mostly mental for me. I was able to convince my self I didn't need them and any time I had the urge I just said ohh wait I don't do that anymore, and push it into the back of my mind. Stay busy find something to do to keep your mind occupied. I realized in the end I would make myself think I needed them by thinking about it so much. Stay strong it's not easy, but it is the best decision I have made in a long time…..starting was the worst. The first 3 days is the hardest… make it past that, you'll be ok. Good luck!!!!!!

  6. Mathilde C. February 19, 2013 at 03:56

    if you want to stop, you have to agree with yourself, that this is what you want, i think you're having a hard time, because you don't really want to stop. you have to want it comepletly. Im a smoker but i dont want to stop, so i don't have the problem you do. but i have had a years pause and its not that hard, if you just tell yourself that you can not smoke. you dont need any kind of e-cigarettes, just tell yourself that this time you won't cheat, this time you will stop for real. just do it. and stick to it.
    good luck.

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      Lenny February 20, 2013 at 21:54

      Thanks for the encouraging feedback!

  7. Joshua Martin February 17, 2013 at 22:24

    Stop this. Nicotine is NOT BAD – it's the TAR in the cigs from large companies. Tobacco is a natural plant. You can enjoy cigs more if you roll your own.

    I notice that for all of the "low energy levels", you don't talk of the pick me up or focus that nicotine brings.

    STOP STOP STOP with this anti-tobacco crap.

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      Lenny February 20, 2013 at 21:59

      Thanks for the feedback. I disagree with almost everything you said but I appreciate you leaving feedback!

  8. randil February 17, 2013 at 09:06

    Hey buddy. I’m 17 years old and I can pretty say that cigarettes officially have me in their grip. I love smoking weed, I do it every day, and over the past year I’ve gotten in the habit of smoking a cigarette every time I get high. I don’t really even enjoy it anymore – they just call to me, and I heed their call. The good thing is, every once in a while I’ll stop smoking cigs, and I don’t really go crazy wishing for a smoke. I’ll want them, but I don’t find it too hard to stay off them. Then after maybe a week, I figure I’ll reward myself for being good, and I’m right back to binge smoking. Anyway, I know what you’re going through, and I’m sure we’ll both be working hard to quit these evil little bastards. Good luck.

  9. spacedman420 February 17, 2013 at 05:50

    I never really got what other people get from smoking cigarettes, i tried it a few times but i didnt feel anything good after smoking. I only use cannabis and it has never pushed me to other hard drugs. Hope you do get your answer and lengthen your life by quitting cigarettes. Cheers

  10. Jen February 16, 2013 at 09:39

    I used to smoke both pretty heavily. Since January 1, 2013 I've quit smoking cigarettes and I feel amazing. Personally, I didn't find quitting cigarettes all that difficult because I love marijuana so much I'd rather just have weed smoke in my lungs and nothing else! Haha

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      Lenny February 17, 2013 at 12:22

      Nice. So you quit cold turkey?

  11. Snerf February 15, 2013 at 22:33

    Both my parents smoke cigarettes and most of my friends do too and i never picked one up.The natural herb is all i need and plus you get bad things from cigarettes so im not ever trying.

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      Lenny February 17, 2013 at 12:22

      Please don't. You will be happy you didn't

  12. Drlawl February 15, 2013 at 18:53

    I feel ya Lenny, I recently gave up cigarettes but it is hard to say that I am not a smoker since this isn't the first time I have tried. I felt out of control when I smoked, as if I wasn't making the decision but instead just going through a motion. It's hard to give any advice since everyone's addiction is very different. All I can say is that it needs to be you committed to quitting for you, not for anyone else. On my current attempt at kicking the habit I employed the use of a stop smoking phone app. All the app does is keep track of how long you haven't smoked, so every time I want a cigarette I look at how far I've come.

    Date of last cigarette: February 10th 2013 19:23
    Time since last cigarette: 4d 22:29
    Money saved: $10.93
    Cigarettes not smoked: 44.44
    Time saved: 4:26

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      Lenny February 17, 2013 at 12:21

      Whats the app?

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